Ok! Here is another survival challenge for me! Bring it on!

I have been through many survival challenge, and this is supposed to be the toughest one! Survival in the modern concrete jungle, KL! Without the help from any relatives, friends and anyone!

The first day when i arrived at KL, it is still early in the morning. I m still sleepy. I can't barely open my eyes. Yawning.... My friend fetched me from the Jalan Duta bus station. While waiting for my owner of the rental house to wake up, i played maple at cyber cafe near SS2. I can't imagine i was actually doing that early in the morning because i got no place to go. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

The next spot, i was moving to my new room. It is a nice room. I like it. It is because i can feel that it is alike and similar to my home sweet home. However, when i put all my stuff inside that room. it is so messy. I don't really like messy room. It takes me about 2 days to finish tidy up my room. Sign. Tired. And i can't barely stand well because i just fall down when i move my stuff out of the hostel. I sprained my leg and hurt my chin. It is so painful. I felt like a handicap person. Cannot talk properly and walk properly. Sign.

Haha! Now i going to share with you all about my new housemate. Florance, she is a tutor. She is very friendly and helpful. However, she is a very busy woman. She is always not around at home. I m so desperately lonely all the times. But, tonight got one spanish guy will be joining our family. Haha! I m really living in a multicultural surrounding now. I have to communicate with them in english all the times. Hope i dun become a banana girl after 2 months lah. XD

The road in Petaling Jaya is very messy. I lost my way when i want to go somewhere else. I'm very fed up tat times. Y the road sign also very messy? Like want me to solve a jigsaw puzzle. Omg! I hate that. Who is going to pay for my petrol since i'm driving? Zzzzzzzzzzz......... However, after a few days, i m quite ok with the road there already. No fear! Keep going!!!!!!!!!! I have to cure my phobia towards direction as soon as possible. If not i will be doom in the end.

Besides, the living in KL is so costly. I cannot imagine i have to spend a lot on my daily meal. I want to cook for myself but i don't really have times for that also. When i come back from work, i'm already like a dead fish. My fatigue takes over me. I can't move, i become very lazy. However, this morning, i still force myself to wake up early at 6am to cook porridge for my breakfast. Then i continue my sweet dream until i found out that i already overslept. Y i always like tat? So BAKA !!!!! Have to build up my time management skill d.

My working place is awesome. First day i reached there, i was kinda blur about the place. It is too big. I have to ask for direction to reach the HR department to register myself. The person in charge is so strict. She hardly grin at us also. Sign. I'm so stress. However, finally i get over that tough period in the end. I being sent to work under the New Media department. It is so cool! So many pro from different fields inside. I'm having fun inside knowing them. But, i m kinda bored because i got no work to do. I just being asked to surf the company website. Maybe due to the cool weather (Super cool air con) and lack of sleep, i keep on feeling sleepy all the times until they throw some works at me. Then i start to endure in doing my work.

Work is work. But, as a trainee, i only got low income environment. I have to keep the wolf of the door all the times. It is so stressful. I always on budget. I cannot simply spend my money buying any unnecessary thing. Zzzzzzzzzzzz..............

Hope i can get through this difficulties as soon as possible. Well, that is all for today. Hope the coming challenge will be more and more interesting. I miss Penang food and my friends. I'm kinda lonely in KL. And i hate the big portion KL food and it taste awful. Omg! I can't stand it. I have to go out and cari makan myself d. If not i will die of starving. I hate to write report also. Reporting what i do for each day in my working life. What a awful life. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................ )@_@(

给未来的他。。。

自从恢复单身生活之后。。。
生活变得很空虚。。。
每天都很忙。。。
无聊时就会胡思乱想。。。
每天都过着独来独往的生活。。。
或许我已经习惯了这种感觉。。。

在吉隆玻的这段日子。。。
真的是很孤独。。。
或许我和那钢铁森林真的水土不合吧。。。
正常的饮食生活都失调了。。。
我挣扎了很久。。。
试着跟这陌生的环境交朋友。。。

直到有一天。。。
他闯入我的生活圈子里。。。
觉得跟他在一起的感觉真的很舒服。。。
无忧无虑，自由自在。。。
我也不知不觉开始喜欢上他了。。。
有时真的觉得莫名其妙。。。
时时刻刻会担心着他。。。

或许这就是缘分吧。。。
就是那么神奇。。。
就是那么高深莫彻。。。
我不知道我们是否可以永远在一起。。。
或许我还不能逃出我所面对的阴影。。
但是我希望我们两个人在一起就要快乐。。。
我不想给他任何压力。。。
开心就好。。。

我就是喜欢两个人无忧无虑的。。。
尽情享受二人世界。。。
跟对方说说心事。。。
坦开心胸。。。
抛开一切烦恼。。。

我只想对他说。。。
我虽然不是什么沉鱼落雁的女孩。。。
但是我有颗上进的心。。。
我会为了我的未来打拼。。。
我有我自己的性格。。。
我很顾虑他的感受。。。
我不想伤害他。。。
不想看到他为我担忧。。。
虽然他不明白我现在的想法。。。
但是我就是我。。。

我也不能给你任何承诺。。。
我也不能预测我们的未来。。。
只想说曾经拥有。。。
也是件美好的事。。。

该说珍重还是保重呢？

曾经有个我很深爱的他。。。
曾经有那种念头想把我的未来寄托在他身上。。。
曾经想和他永远在一起。。。

但是我对爱情失去了信心。。。
可能是因为之前所面对的种阴影吧。。。
我渐渐变成了一个胆小鬼。。。
常常逃避。。。
不想去面对。。。
常常找介口骗自己。。。
我就是不想接受他已经离开我的事实。。。
我就是放不下那段感情。。。
很多人都说我很固执。。。
我知道他们都是为我好。。。
也知道他已经变心了。。。

已经回不了头了。。。
最终我放弃了。。。
但是我还是放不下。。。
但是我相信时间可以冲淡我的痛苦。。。

当我在某某网站看到他有了新的女友。。。
我也不知怎么我哭了。。。
我真的很恨，很恨他。。。

但是我只能默默的祝福他。。。
可能我不是个大方的人。。。
但是我还是想对他说声珍重。。。
谢谢他之前为我做的一切。。。
谢谢他给我美好的回亿。。。

总觉得我每天的生活就像在爬楼梯。。。
拼命的往上爬。。。
总觉得自己很孤单，很寂寞。。。
真的很想停留在某个梯级。。。
累了，不想再往上爬了。。。

所谓旧的不起，新的不来。。。
这都我身边的人所安慰我的话。。。
我深深的相信。。。
美好的未来在等着我。。。
另一个他，我们能不能永远在一起呢？。。。
虽然时间真的很短暂。。。
我会诊惜我们在一起的分分秒秒。。。